He almost destroyed me.

I have had several internal battles about him. I have made up excuses for my behavior with him and have tried to justify why I wanted to stick around, though I always knew he was no good. Friends and family asked me, “What are you doing with him?” and honestly, I couldn’t come up with a good enough answer to convince myself. I had false happiness around him- false because as soon as he went away, I would realize that I had done nothing constructive and that my deadlines and goals were suffering because of it. With this awareness, I would vow to never again accommodate him into my routine, but oh, he was such a good convincer! “ You are stressing yourself out, you need a break. I only want to see you happy and relaxed. Don’t listen to those other guys, they don’t know you like I do.” So I would go in ready to end the relationship, but I would leave convinced that we were meant to be together forever. But  after repeated failure and regret, and missed opportunities, it became obvious to me that he was the enemy, and not the friend. So I just stopped listening to what he had to say. He put up a good show, and I almost reconsidered my decision, but I stayed strong, and he got the hint. We don’t talk anymore. I have my moments of weakness…but the last time I talked to him was a couple of weeks ago. And I’ve got a lot more done without him in my life. Mr Procrastinate, trust me, I don’t miss you. 🙂



  1. waltermukira · October 9, 2014

    When i read the title, i wasnt expecting this- to be frank. But i do feel u on the procrastination vibes. I think it has something to do with instant gratification. Why work hard for an uncertain future than a certain present.

    • thatkenyanchick · October 9, 2014

      Haha, I was going for the shock effect 🙂 yep, procrastination really messes up my plans…and gives me so much stress afterwards. Esp with this Common app. .but I decided to just buckle up and do what I have to do 😀 the rewards far outweigh the struggle…

  2. Timothy Mwiti Kanake · October 9, 2014

    I totally get you. I have been trying to break up with the Mrs for as long as I can remember but she is just so comfy!! This is a wake up call for me to also cut that dead weight and Fffflllllllyyyyyyyyy!! (Yes! I just Quoted 2 Broke Girls)

    • thatkenyanchick · October 9, 2014

      Haha, Timo nakufeel. ..its so annoyingly comfortable to stay in the relationship with Mrs P! But we gotta break free…:-)

  3. joseph Kamau Mugo · October 10, 2014

    Haha i love the post .Mrs P is so sweet but the moment you break up with her things fall into place

  4. winnie · October 13, 2014

    wow!!i love this…i mean both Mr P and the truth about him…im also going to do the same. Sorry Mr. P time up!!

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